Oh so very bored right now >_<

I haven't had any luck these last few days with getting any writing done, I just can focus on any of it. I know I've gone through problems like this before, mostly because of new medications....Sometimes it works itself out, but it can take a while.

Several weeks back now, I screwed up my knee, you'd think if I'm still having problems with it right now that I would remember what I'd done....well I have no clue. It's not so bad that I can't walk around, it's just a serious irritant for moving around.

that didn't take too long!

Mum came home with both a new router and my older brother!

*glomps*


I so missed him! but he'll be here for a week which is a really nice treat! he's been practicing the guitar since a little before Easter, my uncle Mike plays a lot and lent AJ one of his electric guitars.

He's got such nice long fingers for playing too




any excuse is a good excuse to play with the camera




So as I understand this evening we'll be heading out to my aunt Danielle's house so my dad can fix a problem with her sink, if I don't get out of the house before then, at least I will have once today.

now it's back to poking at my story see if I can't get one of them moving again

I've come to a decision, thanks to adaon6 I've decided to get back into posting stories on Fanfiction.net. I've got quite a bit done through LJ I think it'd be nice to see if they get any response in a more public forum.

I'm not planning on posting anything that isn't completely finished, I think there'll be a lot less stress on me that way. Also I'm hoping that this will help me get back into writing on Mistaken Words I would so love to finish that story. Still don't know how I'd feel when it was done...

Not sure why I find this all so exciting, *shrugs* I went and updated my bio for FF.net I don't think I'd touched it since 06, it really needed it ^_~

Also on the writing front I have another Supernatural Hurt/Comfort fic in the works [today hasn't been the best day for writing] and a Doctor Who drabble/short fic. I'm hoping to switch between the two in an effort to keep myself writing *fingers crossed*

I'll definitely continue to post here, I feel like there's less pressure here...I'm not even sure if people read the fics I post. Which makes my LJ a nice place to play around with sillier ideas or just test something out and see if it's worth putting out there.

w00t! I have not had this much luck in writing in a long time!

so here's another drabble [what I call drabbles]

Title: Now What?
Show: Doctor Who
Disclaimer: I don't own

( Now What? )

I hope you enjoyed, please forgive any typos and the like. Also if you have prompt ideas feel free to share, I'm very much in the mood to keep writing, and I'd like to hang onto this for as long as I can.

*sigh*

another day that I feel like I've wasted...I don't know what it would take to make me feel like it was a good day, or even just okay but I haven't found it yet. I got a little writing done today but I'm just not happy with anything I'm coming up with, which leaves me frustrated.

I hate evenings mostly because I end up not wanting to go to bed, but there's nothing I want to do to pass the time while I'm up. can't win for trying...



this is my cousin's Cornish Rex Logan, I love the way his tail curls I've never seen another Rex do that before.

( more pictures )

so there's another day gone...how much longer before its all over? or at least I get this fic finished and posted?

Didn't get much done today *pouts*

Josh started a game in Crisis Core I've been telling him all about it ^_^ he's been hoping that they'll make it for the PS3 which they've done for a few of these PSP games.

Been working on a Hurt/Comfort fic for Supernatural...but my brain just isn't making it easy. I'm stuck at the moment where I don't think it's worth completing. I've been getting really frustrated with it tonight, I start writing something for it, and suddenly have to go back and change a lot of it >_< I'd just really like to be able to finish it!

I went out for a walk today cashed my GST rebate and decided to stop in at my Oma's one of my aunts was visiting with her kids. and found out that my camera can zoom in and out while filming, this is something I've wanted for a long time. I'm also hoping that it's low light abilities will make filming at Animaritime easier.



this is Griffin my aunt's youngest, I have a real soft spot for him

morrighangw here's the fic you asked for! Sorry it took so long I think this is the first Doctor Who fic I've ever tired to do before! I was having trouble with it until today when I saw the first episode of season 4 with neekabe. Now I was inspired! so I hope you enjoy!

Show: Doctor Who
Title: Time to Pay
AN: Set just after Tooth and Claw
Disclaimer: I don't own

( Time to Pay )

I hope you enjoyed!

I'm looking for something to distract me.

I find I really enjoy writing short fics or drabbles, especially Hurt/Comfort. So if you have an idea or prompt for any of these shows:

Supernatural
Firefly
Stargate Atlantis
Doctor Who
Highlander [Methos please]

I wouldn't mind trying some Anime again like:

Gundam Wing
Fruits Basket

I'm sure there's more I just can't think of them ^_~

A few things you should know, I don't do Yaoi or lemons, if you've got something in mind please let me know. I'd really appreciate the distraction!

Even if I couldn't tell by the weather or the birds singing outside my widow in the morning, my kitty Heero makes for an excellent gage of the weather. All of our Cornish Rex as sun worshipers, even in the winter they try to sit in the sun, but you can tell they don't enjoy it as much since it hardly give off any warmth.

The last few days, I've been woken up by Heero calling, licking and nibbling me all in an attempt to get me up. But I'll be damned if I get up before 7 ^_~ I clued in almost immediately that it must be the lengthening days. He's done this sort of thing to me before...but during winter he'll sleep just about until it's time for his breakfast [so much for that]

All four of them were basking in the sun this morning, and I can't wait until it gets a little warmer so we can open the front door and put their big cat tree in front of it. It's always a relief when we can do that, less fighting over the one perch that always gets the sunlight. Of course when that happens the boys are going to start calling for the sun to come through the back door in the afternoon *sigh* and then they'll want to go play outside in the backyard ^_~ I love my kitties!

Yesterday mum picked up a hand mixer for me, which means it's easier to mix the meal replacements that I have. I'll be more likely to have them now, which is a good thing. Still don't have an apatite, but by now I'm used to that. Kind of makes me wonder how long a person can live off those things though...I've basically only be drinking those since the beginning of March. Every now and then I'll have an actual meal, but more often than not I'm just not interested. Oh well...

I'm off to continue writing, I'd really like to get this Firefly story done today if possible, not entirely sure how likely that is. But it would be nice ^_~

I'm trying to fill some of my time with writing, anything that will catch my attention. But inevitably I get to the point where I look at what I've written and think 'this is not worth reading' which leaves me with nothing to do...

Why did writing have to get so hard all of a sudden?

There really isn't anything else for me to do...

*sigh*

Okay so second cake is done!

I solemnly swear I will never do this again! If ever you catch me talking about it, please remind me of this!



I went a little simpler one this one, no two toned boarder, only blue flowers...I'm not exactly happy about that but I'm just glad I'm done!



I haven't eaten anything since yesterday...and I can't even bring myself to drink a meal replacement so...

ramenparty has supplied me with another fic to toy with, so I'm hoping in the next couple of days that I might be able to post it for you.

But tonight we're off to spend the evening with the entire family *sigh* I think I'll be bringing a laptop and perhaps my PSP.

well I'm heading back home today, Kate's gone off to work 3-11 I'll get to see her one last time before I go, I have to bring back her keys.

I'm rather depressed about it to be honest, though I guess all things considered that really shouldn't be all that surprising *sigh*

But we'll be seeing each other again real soon at Anime North! Which really isn't that far away, about two months! I'm so excited to see all of you there!

I've already called for my cab he'll be here by five I'll be early to the airport but I prefer that to not enough time [I have enough stress in my life for the time being]

I've upped my dose of Ritalin it turns out that my count must have been wrong [either that or I missed several doses of the stuff....] I thought I felt it doing something but the effect jut doesn't seem to be able to hang on. Could be the added stress of leaving and going back home. I'll keep at it and talk to Dr Dancel on monday see what she recommends.

While I was down here I've come up with a few more short story ideas [thanks entirely to Kate] but every time I try to start working on one I get nothing. It feels like pulling teeth. Even short little drabbles like 5 times Jack abused his Immortality [and one time it didn't quite work out] those should be easy to write, but I find myself just staring at the computer.

I'll admit I had some distraction this week from Stargate Atlantis I've finished season two! And did you know Kirby Morrow has a repeating role in it? ^_^ I was so surprised and pleased by that when I first saw him! [he makes my heart smile]

Now I'm going to have to go out and buy the third and forth season *shaking fist* Darn you ameryanne why'd you have to get me addicted ^_~ [so much love!!]

I'm almost done packing, about the only things left are my lappy and a couple dvds and are going to go into the same bag...but I might end up watching a few more episodes of Futurama before I go to pass the time ^_^

I've decided one of these days I'm going to have to fly Air France...if for no other reason than to find out what the hell their commercials are trying to say? I mean WTF?

A pool? a quiet lake?

both of those are far more pretty than the inside of a plane could be. Perhaps they're trying to impart just how relaxing the flight is supposed to be with them. Well this I'll just have to see! I want to be pampered!

Also I've got two more short fics on the go, both Supernatural, both Hurt/Comfort that focus on Dean. Should give me something to today so I don't get bored and too thinky about life

So here is the fic I wrote at neekabe request.

Torchwood

Disclaimer: I don't own

( His Home )

I hope you enjoyed! I feel the need to write more of these fics, I think it's on to Supernatural ^_^

still can't write *sigh*

I'm still going over what I've written but I'm just not feeling inspired right now...could be I need a change of scene...

I've been playing Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology again and have progressed the storyline some more, I had been working on leveling Krevin up some before I continued on. I wish your level wasn't effected by the job you have but what can you do? ^_~ at least there're always places that you can work on leveling up.

for you monkeyfeathers I just escorted Stahn through the Hallowed Bastion, and have even gone on a mission with Kratos ^_~

I so love this game, I just love the missions! You don't have to be committed to playing for hours. Though playing for hours isn't a bad thing ^_~

good times...minus the writing problems

Not working leaves me with far to much time on my hands. However trying to motivate myself to do things with the depression in incredibly difficult, I suppose that should go without saying.

I try to fill my time with writing and video games, and that can do it. I can entertain myself perfectly with those, most of the time. Although they do leave me feeling like a blob ^_~ and while there are people out there who love their blob's ^_~ I want to do something.

I see commercials about boflex, I'm silly enough to want to buy one, I know if I did it would end up in the basement not getting used ^_~ but we do have two pieces of exercise equipment downstairs, which I can make use of. So I've decided to start a regiment of 20 minutes a week 3 times a week like they suggest in the boflex commercials and see how I feel. How well I keep it up and the like.

My dad thinks the activity and structure it'll bring to my life will do me a lot of good. He'd like to see me doing a lot of different things during the day, but I don't really see that happening right now. But this is a start, and I'm happy about this start so I guess that's the most important thing right now.

So here's hoping I can keep this up, and it'll do me a little good for a while.

Alright, I totally don't get the Sims for the PSP, I thought it would be similar to the PC version just with less freedom, which is fine by me...

But that doesn't appear to be the case, it seems more like a mystery game, have to solve problems find people dead bodies and properly bury them so they'll stop haunting my house...that sort of thing

Which is fine, I'm always happy having some direction that I'm supposed to go in...the problem I'm having is how to keep my sanity/mood meeter up...it's completely drained right now and nothing I do seems to help raise it...and I find that really frustrating...

And I don't really think any of you out there will have any suggestions for me, since I think I'm the only one playing the PSP version...still if you have anything please! I'd be more than willing to hear. At the moment I'm just waiting for Hayden to have a mental breakdown and be taken away to the 'funny farm' so to speak...

I can never really enjoy a game if I don't understand all the workings of it, like how to improve her mood/sanity...I've got a nice house need money so I can get it decorated the way I like it. I'd like to be able to play more.

However when in doubt there's always Jeanne D'arc to fall back on which is nice to know...but at the moment I'm going to see if I can't get some writing done on chapter 10 of "Lift me Up did I mention this story's made it to 100 pages? ^_~ Always happy when that happens

I don't think he'll ever see this ^_~ but I don't care!

Went out to the Keg tonight had a wonderful dinner, I was actually hungry which was nice though I guess not all the surprising considering I hadn't really eaten anything yet today ^_~

I also decided that if I could find the Sims 2 for PSP previously played I'd pick it up. And sure enough I found a copy in Cobourg so I've started a character her name's Hayden...I thought it would start much the same way my mom's PC version did, so I thought I'd be given the option to create a guy for her too...If I'd known it was just one I probably would have chosen a male character...I prefer to play them.

But so far I'm enjoying it! and now I have three games to balance between playing ^_~

Tales of the World: Radiant Mythology

Jeanne D'arc

And of course ^_~

Sims 2

and I also want to get some writing done, I had some good ideas come to me yesterday while I was chatting with neekabe just haven't had a chance to put them to use yet ^_~

Parents are planning on taking me out to the Keg tonight for dinner.

I really do love eating at the Keg, the steaks they do there are so good! yummy!

I just hope I'm in a decent mood tonight....I certainly wasn't last night, but there's a first time for everything.

Started writing the next chapter for Lift me Up yesterday, haven't got very far but ideas are coming and there's a scene I'm looking forward to slipping in there hoping you'll all like ^_~

hmmm Vailyn was abducted by Aliens!!!...I was trying to build up her logic with a telescope. In a side note I'm definitely getting a better understanding of the game, and how to progress my Sims. So yeah aliens...just what's going to happen now?

I really need to get a bigger house, had to inventory a lot of my stuff to make room for the items I need to promote my character's in their jobs.

Seriously though this game is way to addictive ^_~

But one the bright side it does give me something to do when writing isn't playing fair. And at the moment I know the scene, I'm pretty sure I know how I want it all to play out...but when I go to look at the story by thoughts scatter. Also concerned about writing this scene just right. After a buildup in the chapter before I want it to meet expectations.

So unfortunatley you might have to deal with the cliffy a little longer [Iz sorry]

PS I was aware that there were aliens in the game ^_^