I've come to a decision, thanks to adaon6 I've decided to get back into posting stories on Fanfiction.net. I've got quite a bit done through LJ I think it'd be nice to see if they get any response in a more public forum.

I'm not planning on posting anything that isn't completely finished, I think there'll be a lot less stress on me that way. Also I'm hoping that this will help me get back into writing on Mistaken Words I would so love to finish that story. Still don't know how I'd feel when it was done...

Not sure why I find this all so exciting, *shrugs* I went and updated my bio for FF.net I don't think I'd touched it since 06, it really needed it ^_~

Also on the writing front I have another Supernatural Hurt/Comfort fic in the works [today hasn't been the best day for writing] and a Doctor Who drabble/short fic. I'm hoping to switch between the two in an effort to keep myself writing *fingers crossed*

I'll definitely continue to post here, I feel like there's less pressure here...I'm not even sure if people read the fics I post. Which makes my LJ a nice place to play around with sillier ideas or just test something out and see if it's worth putting out there.

*sigh*

another day that I feel like I've wasted...I don't know what it would take to make me feel like it was a good day, or even just okay but I haven't found it yet. I got a little writing done today but I'm just not happy with anything I'm coming up with, which leaves me frustrated.

I hate evenings mostly because I end up not wanting to go to bed, but there's nothing I want to do to pass the time while I'm up. can't win for trying...



this is my cousin's Cornish Rex Logan, I love the way his tail curls I've never seen another Rex do that before.

( more pictures )

so there's another day gone...how much longer before its all over? or at least I get this fic finished and posted?

Didn't get much done today *pouts*

Josh started a game in Crisis Core I've been telling him all about it ^_^ he's been hoping that they'll make it for the PS3 which they've done for a few of these PSP games.

Been working on a Hurt/Comfort fic for Supernatural...but my brain just isn't making it easy. I'm stuck at the moment where I don't think it's worth completing. I've been getting really frustrated with it tonight, I start writing something for it, and suddenly have to go back and change a lot of it >_< I'd just really like to be able to finish it!

I went out for a walk today cashed my GST rebate and decided to stop in at my Oma's one of my aunts was visiting with her kids. and found out that my camera can zoom in and out while filming, this is something I've wanted for a long time. I'm also hoping that it's low light abilities will make filming at Animaritime easier.



this is Griffin my aunt's youngest, I have a real soft spot for him

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.

w00t I get to do this again! These are from i_paint_the_sky



So this was a icon made by Sma, I really like using it when people 'Loose the Game' on me [like you're all going to do now ^_^] because it's an excellent comeback! JUDGE!! besides it has Jensen Ackles do I need a better reason?



Gundam Wing was I believe the first anime I ever really got into, I haven't seen it in forever but I do own the series so I can always watch it again. So when I started my LJ I thought I really should have at least one Gundam icon, Heero was always my favorite hence the naming of my kitty Heero. I believe I snagged this off neekabe fits my mood often times.



Yay for Firefly a lot of my icons have people looking injured in them, most of the time I feel like this fits me best for a lot of my posts. I'd like to know what the writing down the side says, but I can't read it ^_~



Who could say no to this icon? the minute I saw it I had to take it! [don't really feel like there's much I can say about this one] I want a badge of badassery...that is all.



there's a good story behind this one, I asked Jade if I could write a Supernatural fic for her, and if she could have one thing in it what would she want. Her response was almost immediate, she wanted Dean with wings, and that's how Lift me Up was born. I was wandering through peoples icons when I stumbled on this one, and couldn't resit taking it for the fic.

Okay so second cake is done!

I solemnly swear I will never do this again! If ever you catch me talking about it, please remind me of this!



I went a little simpler one this one, no two toned boarder, only blue flowers...I'm not exactly happy about that but I'm just glad I'm done!



I haven't eaten anything since yesterday...and I can't even bring myself to drink a meal replacement so...

ramenparty has supplied me with another fic to toy with, so I'm hoping in the next couple of days that I might be able to post it for you.

But tonight we're off to spend the evening with the entire family *sigh* I think I'll be bringing a laptop and perhaps my PSP.

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick five of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.

from yubsie



shortly after being introduced to Firefly [thanks neekabe] I went looking for icons. I just loved the episode "War Stories" so many awesome moments! Besides that River is such an amazing character, and you really get to see it here! Oh why did you have to get canceled?!



Ah the Impala...that car is too much a part of Supernatural not to have it's own icon ^_~ besides that, I've found it's really useful for posts that do contain a lot of information [especially if it's about different things] I don't know if anyone else would notice that, but it makes my feet happy [On a side note a recent episode of Mythbusters broke me &hearts, when they blew up a Impala]



I loves the doctors! both 9 and 10 first time I watched the episode I was shocked at how much emotion it could invoke from me, I knew he wasn't going to die and yet it still just about killed me when he changed.



Ah Zack as a plushie he's just adorable! [Ooo and I've commissioned one to be made ^_~] Funny story about Final Fantasy VII I had started the game many years back...but got distracted by something shiny. It was actually neekabe who got me hooked on the idea again, and she'd never played [any video games] I am now impatiently waiting for Crisis Core to come out next week ^_^



This is my Mifflin &hearts! my mom was trying to get a nice portrait shot of him, but just as she pressed the button up came the tongue ^_~ I love it just the way it is! and couldn't resist making it an icon since I talk about him's little self so much

I hope that's what you were looking for....though I have a strange feeling it wasn't

I've decided one of these days I'm going to have to fly Air France...if for no other reason than to find out what the hell their commercials are trying to say? I mean WTF?

A pool? a quiet lake?

both of those are far more pretty than the inside of a plane could be. Perhaps they're trying to impart just how relaxing the flight is supposed to be with them. Well this I'll just have to see! I want to be pampered!

Also I've got two more short fics on the go, both Supernatural, both Hurt/Comfort that focus on Dean. Should give me something to today so I don't get bored and too thinky about life

Alright, I totally don't get the Sims for the PSP, I thought it would be similar to the PC version just with less freedom, which is fine by me...

But that doesn't appear to be the case, it seems more like a mystery game, have to solve problems find people dead bodies and properly bury them so they'll stop haunting my house...that sort of thing

Which is fine, I'm always happy having some direction that I'm supposed to go in...the problem I'm having is how to keep my sanity/mood meeter up...it's completely drained right now and nothing I do seems to help raise it...and I find that really frustrating...

And I don't really think any of you out there will have any suggestions for me, since I think I'm the only one playing the PSP version...still if you have anything please! I'd be more than willing to hear. At the moment I'm just waiting for Hayden to have a mental breakdown and be taken away to the 'funny farm' so to speak...

I can never really enjoy a game if I don't understand all the workings of it, like how to improve her mood/sanity...I've got a nice house need money so I can get it decorated the way I like it. I'd like to be able to play more.

However when in doubt there's always Jeanne D'arc to fall back on which is nice to know...but at the moment I'm going to see if I can't get some writing done on chapter 10 of "Lift me Up did I mention this story's made it to 100 pages? ^_~ Always happy when that happens

hmmm Vailyn was abducted by Aliens!!!...I was trying to build up her logic with a telescope. In a side note I'm definitely getting a better understanding of the game, and how to progress my Sims. So yeah aliens...just what's going to happen now?

I really need to get a bigger house, had to inventory a lot of my stuff to make room for the items I need to promote my character's in their jobs.

Seriously though this game is way to addictive ^_~

But one the bright side it does give me something to do when writing isn't playing fair. And at the moment I know the scene, I'm pretty sure I know how I want it all to play out...but when I go to look at the story by thoughts scatter. Also concerned about writing this scene just right. After a buildup in the chapter before I want it to meet expectations.

So unfortunatley you might have to deal with the cliffy a little longer [Iz sorry]

PS I was aware that there were aliens in the game ^_^

So my Sims house caught fire twice...and this while I was talking with neekabe *laughs* I know why it happened there may be too much stuff in my small house, I can fix that. But I ended up having to shut it off so I could restart from my last save because too much damage had been done in the second fire.

In other news Snowball is the greatest kitty. So easy to please, so loving of her people ^_^ *huggles* Snowball! It was definitely the right move to make selling Lex...I never really considered the fact that a pet might be incompatible with the people. I'm not even sure that's what it was but it does make a little sense, they give the characters personalities and the animals.

In either case looking forward to more play tomorrow, and hopefully some writing. Today every time I looked at Lift me Up my thoughts just scattered...really rather frustrating actually. But hopefully tomorrow will be better *fingers crossed* I really honestly don't want to leave all of you waiting with this cliffhanger for too long if I can help it [whoo, was that a really roundabout crazy sentence? *shrugs*]

At least I'm ending today on a slightly up note

It would seem my dog Lex has a serious case of feng shui as it took me bloody forever to figure out where I could actually put his bed so he'd sleep on it, instead of tossing and turning on the floor while moaning dreams of a bed *shakes fist*

But all is straightened out now...found a cheat for Sims 2 Pet, on GameFAQ...but no matter how I tried it or how many times nothing happened. I'm not even sure what was supposed to happen. But now that I have a few of my frustrations sorted out I can continue on slowly building up my money so I can move my Sims' Ahrum and Vailyn Is'nah [couldn't think of a last name ^_~] into a bigger house!

And I've at least got chapter 9 for Lift me Up started, which is the hardest part, so *fingers crossed* I'll get some more written tomorrow!

So as much as I was enjoying playing Kiefer and Yaigure, I was frustrated by the way things were going Keifer would have to go off to work and everything would be in fast forward and Yaigure would be unhappy and there was nothing I could do for him. And when Kiefer got home, there wasn't enough time to take care of both Yaigure's needs and Keifer's.

So I decided to once again start over with a family Vailyn, Ahrum and they dog Lex. I find this one the one hand a little more confusing trying to balance two characters but at least when Ahrum goes off to work I have Vailyn to pay attention to Lex...Now I have them living in the same house I got them a double bed...but are they actually a family?

And if not how to I make them a family?

This game is addictive, I had a very hard time putting it down today so I could try and work on Lift me Up so I can hopefully have a post for later today.

My internal clock is completely and totally out of whack right now. I keep thinking it's around 10:00 in the morning, and then I see things that just don't fit like the sun coming in through the back windows, and clocks telling me it's 1:00pm...I know I had a hard time getting up this morning but really...what happened to my time?

*thinking*

...
...

I suppose some of it could have been eaten by playing Zoo Tycoon 2...seriously an addicting game! I'm working on this new Zoo, it has four different habitats, Tropical, Boreal, Desert, and Savannah. I've already taken care of the Tropical one fit a lot of animals in there too, and none of them are complaining about not having any space.

I wanted to try something different on the Savannah one though. I wanted to free range all the animals herbivors, and the carnivors and see what happens. Apparently if you leave them with no food put down they'll actually start to hunt ^_^ which makes it so life like.

But I've stopped playing for the moment to continue writing, and because I have to go run some errands in a little while...but no doubt before the day is done I'll be working on the next square of my Zoo. ^_~

so after some careful consideration and some impulsiveness, the nod from my mom [she's almost as good as you are neekabe ^_~]

I've decided on a ring and even ordered it.

I must not have really looked at it before, cause I think it's beautiful nicer than any of the other ones I was looking at.

So happy feet, a little something to look forward to, in theory it should be here within 5-9 days.

Now I can settle back with my Rolo ice cream, and work on Lift me Up maybe even get enough don for another post before I go to bed tonight ^_^

I watched the first and second episode today with my brother.

Dean is utterly wonderful! [so much love] I want more!!

oh Dean!

But now I can properly gush about it with anyone that wants me too ^_^

good times!

Also watched Seven Years in Tibet anyone on my flist see it? the reason I ask is because it came with a warning at the beginning, contains violence, nudity, strong language, and sexuality...of those warnings I only noticed violence. Now I'm wondering if there was a lot cut out of the movie, though if that's the case why put the warnings there? I highly doubt any channel would consider Brad Pitt without a shirt to be nudity.

In any case, writing is moving a little with help from my muse [thanks neekabe] and I received three chapters back from my editor, so I've been getting them ready, posted one, am working on the second.

so after watching the end of season 2, something has occurred to me that hasn't to anyone else I've asked so far. So now I'm going to pose the question to all of you.

Who thinks Mary Winchester is one of the 'Other generations' the Yellow Eyed Demon was talking about.

You'll recall YED mentioned the other generations to Sam, when they met in his dream, and then proceeded to show Sam the night that the demon visited him.

Mary clearly knew him, which is what makes me think she's had dealings with him in the past, making her one of the other children, from her generation...

that thought cross anyone else's mind?

Third season starts tonight!!

Still haven't seen the season final [silly me]

But we'll be downloading it so we can watch them with my uncle again, just like old times

Magnificent Seven

oh yeah ^_^ we're talking the seven deadly sins! Always makes me think of Fullmetal Alchemist ^_~

must kick my cat!! (not seriously!)

he's become really grumpy this afternoon, it happens a lot mostly to do with Chaz, that's what bothers me so much the two of them can sleep soundly together in my lap, so why won't they get along all the time?!

*sigh*

I will get a little relief as mom feeds them!!

I managed to write almost a sentence, maybe write even more...though it's been several hours since that almost a sentance ^_~

almost finished the second season of House (love that show!!)

My brain is broke again!! >_< grr!!

I'm so close to being able to make a post on Lift me Up I even let ramenparty know in the hopes that it would get me moving.

but it's not working!!

There's still day left, and there's been so many days where I can't write anything until the very end of the day...

Every time I look at it my brain hurts, and I'd been doing so well for a while there, I even know what I want to have happen next. I just can't seem to get it moving...rawr!!

I'm also worried about the story becoming repetitive...how many different ways is there for the boys to take care of Demons? And what about Hell Hounds? how do you take care of them? hmm...

I don't know if I'll be able to avoid those questions, and not make it obvious that that's what I'm trying to do, but anything right now just to keep the story moving! and to get to parts I really want to work on!!

It'll be easier to post more pictures when I'm back home and can post until my eyes bleed walk away and come back without having to hit downtown for internet. Although I have enjoyed the experience and have even found a drink that I like ^_~

( Back to the morning of )

So that's the end of prep, there's a lot of other pictures, but I liked those ones best, now onto the photo shoot I did with Lindsay and Kate in the Inn.

( Only hours to go )

Alright that's all for now! there's still so much to come, but I'd like to see if I can get enough written on Lift me Up to make another post.