Oh so very bored right now >_<

I haven't had any luck these last few days with getting any writing done, I just can focus on any of it. I know I've gone through problems like this before, mostly because of new medications....Sometimes it works itself out, but it can take a while.

Several weeks back now, I screwed up my knee, you'd think if I'm still having problems with it right now that I would remember what I'd done....well I have no clue. It's not so bad that I can't walk around, it's just a serious irritant for moving around.

So today begins the season of Lent...*sigh* I really hate days of fast, might not be hungry on a normal day but because I can't have anything I'm all the more hungry. Oh well I'm sure it's doing more good because it's hard.

Since I've been having so much trouble writing of late I decided to get into a video game, my brother mentioned starting it soon and I couldn't resist. Legaia 2: Duel Saga I've played it before but never beat it. I think I had far to much on the go back then probably lost my place.

Two days of taking Tarazodone and I haven't experienced Serotonin Storm, so that's a good thing. Means I'm sleeping right again, which is really important.

So Dutch pancakes tonight

and I'm not really sorry to say I Lost the Game

Damn migraine I've had the bloody thing all day long, and it just won't go away!!

I've taken painkillers, even one designed for relief of migraines (I got a little relief for a short while but it's still there)

I feel it when I move...

Hopefully it'll go away when I sleep, but considering I woke up to it last night, I'm not really holding my breath...

I seem to do that a lot, (not hold my breath that is) I guess that could be considered a good thing.

I am tired but I intend to sedate myself just to make sure I sleep well, migraines are a pain during the day but are a real bitch at night >_< as anyone who's shared a bed with me can a test.

oh well time for the sleepy kitty to go to bed, and not worry about anything else until the morning.

Josh spotted a flea on Dodger...

So when mom came home we gave Dodger and Romeo a flea bath, Heero and especially Chaz don't really need one as they don't have as much fur less place for a flea to hide.

Mom was able to bathe Dodger on her own but asked me for help with Romeo as we've never bathed him before. Oh man! is he difficult ^_~

You'd swear you were killing him! but we managed to do it! though I was having to hold him so tight that a muscle in my thigh was cramping. But we did it! and so that should be the end of the problem!

I'm really hoping it was just one single random flea...cat's haven't been outside in the last few weeks. Mom hasn't had any dogs with fleas and if she does she always sprays around the shop, especially around the door to upstairs. So we really think this must be random.

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On another note, my skin is driving me absolutely nuts >_< I want to jump out of it it's itching so much!! Stupid allergy meds not working for whatever reason!!

arg!! Aaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! *screaming*

*gasp*

waiting for the benydril to kick in for another 4 hours of relief

Chance is alright!

The vet managed to suture his tail so no amputation was necessary, he'll be coming home at 3:00. I'm so relieved I'm in tears.

Edit: I've got my baby back! and he's doing great! He was suffering from the muchies coming off the sedatives, but he ate some with my help to keep him from bashing his little head into the sides of his porcelain dish. He's now laying on the windowsill taking in the sun.

He's been real good so far with his tail, not hitting it against anything, and he holds it off the ground. It's not covered because they want it to dry out and we have antibiotics for him to take for a week. We also have some pain meds for him if he needs them.

This day has been up and down, and then Up and Down, ending I hope on an Up...but there's still day left.

*huggles Chance*

I snuggled his little self the entire ride home from the vet *much love for Chance*

( bleh I say! )

Mistaken Words is move along slowly for me, I feel very inclined to write right now, but my eyes keep wanting to close. Maybe I'll take a nap this afternoon and see if I can get some more writing done later.

I've got a difficult scene that I have to write next, I've done it before handwritten years ago, but then it was just Heero and the other man, this time Ash will be there as well. And I'm feeling a little daunted by the task of keeping it all running smoothly.

I do really want to write, it's so relaxing writing pages and pages on a story. I also want to keep ahead of my readers, they're slowly catching up to me ^_~

I posted chapter 75 'Home Coming' a little while ago, and I'm working on chapter 79 'The Last Man Standing'

*laughs* I really have no idea how long Mistaken Words is going to end up being! neekabe keeps providing me with new ideas, fillers for placed I hadn't thought about before. ^_~ I hope this is good news to my readers, several have said just to keep on writing. I think it'll be a seriously sad day when I finally finish it.

I know I have other stories to fill the gap when Mistaken Words is done, but still it'll be weird. Often times when I finish a chapter I have a hard time starting the next, just can't seem to find the words. I can't begin to imagine what it'll be like when I finish this mammoth story ^_^

In conclusion I love writing ^_~

At least it wasn't a 10 hour shift...

I'm told to look on the bright side, and ever now and again, I manage it ^_~

At the moment I'm just really aggravated I was hoping a shower would be enough time to let me unwind but apparently not...

*sigh*

It got so bad my hands have started to shake...very annoying.

But at least I'm done for now, and have five days off to work one stories, if they ever choose to love me again ^_~

*sigh*

I feel like jumping out of my skin...perhaps a sedative is in order. I'll wait a little longer see if I can calm down on my own.

There are a number of downsides to taking painkillers...there's only one that I'm ever really bothered by.

As I feel the Codeine wear off I can feel the depression creep back in, and after feeling so good, even if it's only for around four hours...it makes the depression feel a hell of a lot worse.

I knew this would happen though...

and I'll take it. It's either that or return to the way things were, which isn't any better believe me.

The Trillion drug plan, is a total bust.

I'll have to pay into it way more than I'll ever get out of it. Not to mention the fact my meds cost $200 a month.

This is bloody frustrating!

damn, I feel drugged out of my tree...

I think I'm going to have to start taking my meds earlier in the evening, especially if I want to get up in time for work.

Damn my body and it's hypersensitivity, this would be so much easier if I didn't have to deal with that on top of everything else...

*yawns*

Story's moving slowly...but if I keep at it I ought to be able to have another part ready for posting *fingers crossed*

with some help from neekabe I've got a little bit more of an idea of where this story is going...still could prove interesting if I have to back track in order to keep it moving.

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It's possible I'm extra sleepy cause I have two kitties sleeping on me at the moment...one is enough to make most people sleepy ^_~